A few years ago I felt like I had found my "missing puzzle-piece". We connected in every way and it was very fulfilling. Then she left my life because I was in a bad place emotionally and that made me toxic. We don't talk nowadays, and I have the feeling she hates me because of the way I was back then. I don't blame her, though.
Lately, I've been trying to kill the idea that I need another person to be whole. A friend of mine says it's better wanting to be around a person than to need being around them. I agree, but it's hard thinking that way when you've been taught your whole life that a co-dependent relationship is the right one. On the other hand, being lonely and cultivating healthy relationships when you have an extreme fear of abandonment (which is my case) is hard.
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Date: 2020-08-17 12:07 pm (UTC)Lately, I've been trying to kill the idea that I need another person to be whole. A friend of mine says it's better wanting to be around a person than to need being around them. I agree, but it's hard thinking that way when you've been taught your whole life that a co-dependent relationship is the right one. On the other hand, being lonely and cultivating healthy relationships when you have an extreme fear of abandonment (which is my case) is hard.